MY BLOG IS 14TH YEARS OLD

Today marks the 14th year of my blog's existence. I cannot believe that it has already been 14 years since I started this blog in 2010. I have so much to share with you in the days to come. It is a significant milestone of my ministry. On 28 Oct, which is my 50th birthday, I will make an important announcement to a new ministry that the Lord has called me to 'birth'. It is a culmination of all that I have learnt in these years of sitting at Jesus' feet and learning from Him. I never thought my life would turn out in this manner. But yes, the waiting season has ended and the Lord has transitioned me into a new season. Besides my son has just graduated from junior college. He has come of age as in 18 years old this year. My stay home season is coming to an end. In this new season, God is launching me into the marketplace ministry. He has been preparing me for the past two years by working with various people in the marketplace. Even though I may not have all the details, it is enough for me to take the next step. But most importantly, I thank God that my past season of waiting and wilderness has finally come to an end. I am excited to see the new beginning on the horizon. That will be all for now. I will be making some announcements on 28 Oct so stay tuned!

MAMMON AND ABUNDANCE MINDSET

One thing I would like to touch on regarding this topic of finances is about the spirit of Mammon. So what is this Mammon? Simply put, it is the love of money. Matthew 6:24 says that ‘No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love t he other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.’ In this case, money is not evil because the root of all evil is the love of money (1 Timothy 6:10). If you use money to bless people, it is a good thing. If you use people to make money, it is evil.

I heard this sermon from Johnny Enlow, author of the Seven Mountains Mandate. One thing he mentioned was the spirit of poverty. He said this wasn’t about whether someone is rich or poor. It was about their mindset. Rich people can be in fear of losing their wealth because of how they came into it. It was sobering when Johnny said people who amassed great wealth not through the Lord will be insecure. Deuteronomy 8:18 says that it is the Lord who gives us the power to create wealth. 

Any other means of gaining wealth not through the Lord is from the devil. The devil gives and he can take away. Which is why bible says riches are fleeting. But we who put our trust in the Lord to provide for us need not fear such storms or shaking in the economic realm. Because we have seen how the Lord provided for us in the last crisis. And we are not beholden to money. We serve God, not mammon. 

People are beholden to mammon because many times they do not have an abundance mindset. They are too focused on their lack. They cannot see God as a loving Father who wants to take care of their needs and wants. They cannot trust God as their Provider. They are afraid that if they do not look out for themselves, they will be disadvantaged. They do not know that as children of the Most High God, all they have to do is to ask the Father.

 

There are some who will leverage on every opportunity, even people to make money. They want to get the best deal out of everything. Johnny said they will hide under the guise of stewardship but in fact it isn’t. When it comes to the things of God, you want to be generous. You want to be a channel, not a dam. You don’t want to hoard things and blessings. You want to give it away. 

 

This is sobering to me because even though I don’t leverage on people to make money, I always try to get the best deal out of my purchases. I attribute this to good stewardship but at times I feel it is limiting. Like why can’t I just spend at will, not looking at the prices all the time. Why do I always need to wait till I go JB to shop and buy cheaper stuff. Hopes deferred makes the heart sick but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

 

Yes I can make do with delayed purchases or delayed fulfilment but at times, God just wants me to be obedient there and then. He wants me to just spend when the desire or need comes up. He wants me to have an abundant mindset. He needs me to start visualising how it is like when abundance comes into my life. How I will handle it. This is what He has been talking to me about some months ago. 

 

God is going to show us where the hidden treasures are. Where the pots of gold are hidden. I don’t know how but my part is to obey. And to prepare when He tells me to. The very first place I need to prepare is in my mind. Which is why it was crucial for the Lord to address my poverty mentality. Because this is a limiting belief that will keep me from receiving the abundance in the first place. 

 

I had to remove this blockage before His supply will flow freely in my life. Which was why God took so long to address this through creating new neural pathways. Reconditioning of my mind. How can I be generous to others when I am not generous to myself in the first place. God is a practical God. Unless I really don’t have any desires for material stuff, which some people don’t, then I can freely give away my money. But I still have desires so God wants me to go fulfil them first. 

 

I always believe the abundance that God gives to us will be an overflow. Like how He will bless your family with more than enough money that you can ever spend in our lifetime. Even after putting aside an inheritance for your children’s children, you will still have a lot more money to give away. God is so good. He will never want us to give at my expense. Then it will be self-righteousness. 

 

Another thing Johnny pointed out was people want to give but they aren’t sure who to give to and how much. Giving is actually a lot of work because you got to do due diligence on the organisation you give to. You don’t want to be a bad steward and throw your money away. Especially when there has been much scandal about mega churches in previous years. People are more careful about giving. 

BUDGETING

I read a book titled ‘More Money Now’. It is a secular book but it has nuggets of truth to learn from. One of my takeaways was about budgeting. The author said that most millionaires don’t keep a budget. Because budgeting will never make you rich. Budgeting focuses on tactic without understanding that good personal finance is 80% mindset and behaviour, 20% tactic. It was when she stopped using a budget that she discovered a better way to manage her money that she started to see real change.

A budget may give us instant benefit but this creates a false sense of security that prevents us from looking at the reasons why we are overspending in the first place. To break out of this the first thing we need to do is acknowledge that a budget limits our control. You need to learn what is important to you and to think critically about what you are spending and why. But society doesn’t want us thinking, it wants us following a set of rules and norms. 

 

She sought to understand more about why she did the things and how she could empower herself to do the things necessary to bring her closer to her goals. To know where her thoughts about money came from, how those shaped her life and how to rewrite them. To create a simple way to manage her money that didn’t involve shame, blame, restriction or anxiety. Create new money rules to run her life that would provide the opposite effect of budgeting.

 

She needed to learn how to seek happiness in what she bought and stop buying stuff that didn’t satisfy. Instead of trying to conform to some predetermined plan that didn’t work, she had to rewrite the rules and make them work for her. Finally she was ready to truly learn about saving, investing and growing her money without sacrificing her happiness to get there. She talked about money gauge, which is simply the amount of money that feels normal and natural to you. Your comfort zone with money. 

 

I just wanted to process what she said at this point. Now budgeting is my area of strength. It was a tool that served me well all those years. It helped me to better track my household finances. At least I knew where the money was coming from and where it was going. I had a good grasp on our cash flow and our savings level. I don’t have a savings goal though. I only used the tool to track my spending, to make sure that we are not overspending. 

 

I also don’t apportion our savings into various categories because I felt it was too restrictive. And I don’t take note of every single thing we spent on. Just the baseline items like dining, groceries, others etc. Even so I felt it was getting a little onerous recently. Yet I must say that budgeting served me very well. I am proud of my household budget. It also gave me a sense of security to see that our bank accounts are growing. It was like a sacred cow to me. 

 

Unlike the author, I actually enjoyed budgeting. I enjoyed tracking where our money went to. It worked very well for me in the past few years. But somehow lately I sensed God telling me that my budget could be limiting me. It started in Jun 2023, when I realised our spending had been higher in the last few months and I felt that we should tighten our belts. I didn’t like this feeling of spending out of control. I was also cautious of lifestyle creep. But no, we didn’t spend excessively. 

 

It could be due to inflation and higher cost of living that our household expenses went up. This also caused some anxiety because I began to wonder if inflation would put a strain on our savings in future. Which was why I became more careful with our spending. To a point that it was limiting me. It really does limit my control of my finances. Not only that, it was focusing me on the demand side, trying to cut down costs when God is enlarging my vision regarding the supply. 

 

So then, the poverty mentality within me surfaced. I am the kind of person who enjoys saving and at times I will try not to spend if I can go without something. I know that spending money makes most people happy but not me. Saving money makes me happy. I knew I was going overboard when I had nothing to save up for but yet I was still saving. I don’t know what I am saving up for. Definitely not retirement. It could be to build the buffer to pay our home loan mortgage in cash.

 

When this poverty mindset came up again, I realised God was trying to get a message across to me. The mindset has got to do with everything: personal finance and savings. Firstly where was my security about money? Is it in my ability to control my budget well or is my trust in God to provide? Secondly is this budgeting empowering me or limiting me in this new season? It might have worked well in the last season but it could be old wineskin that limits my potential in this new season. 

 

The Lord was also teaching me about saving, investing and growing my money without sacrificing my happiness to get there. So while I began to sense less ‘life’ or enjoyment when doing budgeting, I sense more ‘life’ when God was teaching me how to increase our passive income. I wasn’t looking forward to tracking our expenses every month. In fact I would get stressed and cringe when I realised it was more than previous months. Then I would avoid activities that require us to spend money. It became too restrictive. 

 

So yes in the new season I believe God wants me to spend more time on increasing our income. Be it through doing some business or other forms of investment. Maybe less on reducing our expenses. Because we are already very lean. A lot of our expenses could not be cut down further like taxes, utilities, mobile bills, tithing, parents’ allowance, insurance, maintenance etc. We already spent lesser on petrol and parking this year because we don’t drive as often.