Last night I was looking through my past journals and I realised that I had been expectant of a promise since end 2011. I was already talking about the end in sight. Then when this vision tarried, I felt out of steam in end 2012. I was crying out to the Lord. This was what I wrote in Oct 2012. I felt like now is a full circle moment.
I came to a point that I told The Lord I can't make things move but He can. I told Him I am tired for I have waited so long and I felt that I had walked a long journey. I said 'Lord, I am tired. Please take over. You carry me to the finishing line if necessary. I run to You for rest.' I know that when I rest in Him, I will rise up like wings in eagles. I know I will finish well and give Him all the glory. In the final analysis, it is not about me but about Jesus.
Then in Jun 2016, I read Doug’s prophetic forecast for that year. He was also talking about how weary he had become due to the long journey and at one point he couldn’t carry on and told Jesus to carry him across the finishing line. I was so encouraged to hear that word because the warfare was so fierce in that year.
But little did I know that I still had some way to go. I really didn’t know how I made it through those years, especially when I already felt like I couldn’t take it in 2012. I still had so many more years to journey. At that time I had like just begun and I already felt weary! Honestly if it wasn’t God sustaining me, I would have given up in those years.
As I was speed reading Doug’s prophetic words for 2016 and 2017, I then realised that God’s word is timeless. As in, He works in a different timeline than we expected. Most of the times when He gave us a word, we would expect it to happen like straightaway but it doesn’t usually happen this way. There is usually an incubation period to the word.
God may have given a word ten years ago, five years ago, three years ago that is still valid now. Or maybe it is only coming to pass now. We may have thought His word was delayed but in fact it is right on time. But these are things we couldn’t have discerned when the word was first given. So when it didn’t happen soon enough, we assumed that we heard Him wrongly or that it wasn’t coming to pass.
What is interesting is after a passage of time had passed, God will bring to remembrance those things He said years ago. That is also the reason why He wanted us to write those things down so we could refer and run with it. Else we would forget. But He doesn’t forget. So when He comes to us again with those words, we should sit up and pay attention. For usually that is the time He is about to perform His word.
It is a bit like Deuteronomy when God reminded the children of Israel about the law He gave in Exodus. People called it the second law. It was a reminder of the first law. The timing of it was given at the point when God was about to move the Jews into their promised land. After all it had been 38 years so they would have forgotten about the law. Besides this was a new generation arising.
This was exactly how I felt this year. God opened my eyes to see the things which I didn’t understand in past years. He also gave me the answers to the questions I asked Him years ago. I now realise why I could not see it at that time was because I haven’t reached my destination yet. But once I came to where God wanted me to, everything became much clearer to me. This is called hindsight.
Now, ten years is considered a long time to wait and journey. So many things could have happened in a decade. You cannot even imagine the amount of things God told me over the decade. The secrets of His heart and the things in the future. Things to come. This year I see many things which He told me in 2011 coming to pass so I don’t take prophetic words for granted. I know that God has an uncanny way of making His word come to pass.
In a timeframe that we didn’t expect. We probably thought we had missed it or that it was all too late for us. But in God’s eyes, nothing is too late. He sees time unlike we do. He is timeless. He created time. The things He spoke ten years ago were still fresh. When He brings it to remembrance it is almost like He just said it yesterday. Like it was the first time He said it.
And so, in this aspect, I was reminded of my desire to want to finish this race well more so than seeing this promise manifest. I know this journey was never just about a promise fulfilled but so much more. I don’t know the extent of my spoils yet but I know it is very great. Anyway at this point in time, I am at peace for I know I have finished well. This is what truly matters.
I have gotten what I desired all these years. To finish well. Now I am crossing my finish line. This is my part to play. The promise is up to Him to deliver. All I know is that He does not lie to me. If He still wants me to bring forth this promise then no man or devil can stop it from manifesting. All I have to do is to avail myself and just believe.
Well, I can start rejoicing for a fact that I have completed the journey. Yes. That is a mega milestone. I have come to the end of the super long journey. Yes I have made it. I have crossed the finish line. So all that remains is for Him to perform. He is able and most willing to give me the manifestation. And yes, the enemy cannot taunt me anymore on the timing issue. He has been using this to torment me for years. Now he is totally silenced.
The enemy knows I have come to the end of the tunnel. He knows that God has shifted my season. So that cannot be used against me anymore. Praise the Lord! He has released me from this torment! The enemy I see today I will see no more! I have indeed passed through the passage of time. No matter how long it took, I made it through by His grace. I have paid a price so to speak. I have passed through the passage of time. Now what awaits me is my prize.
(Lana’s post on 13 Dec confirmed this. The Lord is saying this to us: The hard toiling is coming to an end. Your faithfulness and obedience to Me has brought you into a place of great reward and increase. Now I shall entrust you with much. The enemy attempted to ruin your vineyard that I had you place your hand to, but you remained. Well done! The season has now changed and I am moving you into a place of tending many vineyards with greater empowerment of My Spirit, ease, joy, peace and favour. You shall know abundance in these vineyards like you have never known before.)
