THE BATTLE BELONGS TO GOD

Recently I was just thinking about our previous home, Rio Vista (RV) unit number. It was pointing to Psalms 23:5. You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies. Pastor’s sermon last week was a replay from Jan 2016. It was about possessing our possessions. How the battle belongs to the Lord. Pastor was saying we fight by feeding on God’s word and not fighting. That is why the Lord prepares a table for us in the presence of our enemies. 

“Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, to which you were also called and have confessed the good confession in the presence of many witnesses.“ — 1 Timothy 6:12 NKJV. We fight “the good fight of faith” — The word “good” is the Hebrew word “kalos,” which means “beautiful” or “handsome.” The fight of faith is beautiful because in the end, we win. The only fight for us to fight is the good fight of faith.

 

On hindsight I realised why God gave us this unit number when we bought our RV condo in 2010. There was a fight of faith to be fought and the Lord was teaching us to fight by feeding on His word. Indeed the warfare and assaults had been very fierce and relentless but in the end we still win. I recalled how the giants started appearing in Nov 2015, like a prelude to 2016, the year of possessing our inheritance. 

 

2016 was a year that we saw giants coming out from the woodwork like never before. Honestly if not for His grace, I wouldn’t have made it through. The assaults back then were on my life. The enemy threatened to take my life unless I gave up on this promise. He was that blatant. At that time Pastor was talking about our light afflictions achieving an eternal glory. I totally had no idea what he was talking about. 

 

The nature of our flesh is to be inclined to the visible and palpable, that which our five senses can observe. However, God lives in the invisible realm. “For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen.” — 2 Corinthians 4:17–18 NKJV

 

Pastor said this. This temporal difficulty you’re facing now is working for you a far more exceeding and eternal, permanent weight of glory! The word “glory” is the word “kavod” in the Hebrew, which means “heavy.” At the end of your trial, you will see yourself coming out of it with an added weightiness or influence. Your presence and words will carry weight. Now on hindsight I could see what God was doing. 

 

It was only at the end of this trial that I see myself coming out with added weightiness and influence. My presence and words now carry weight. But in the midst of the trial it made no sense as to why I was being assaulted so fiercely. I couldn’t see past the next day. I was glad to have even survived! Well, surviving wasn’t God’s best for us. Thriving is. And I also had to learn how to rest in the midst of the battle. 

 

Even though the promise has not yet come, I can tell God, “Lord, I thank You that I can be at rest because You are fighting this battle.” Hebrews 4:11 was impressed upon me in the early years of my stay home season. I couldn’t fully comprehend why God told me to labour to enter into His rest. Many times, I feel like the battle is mine to fight, but it is the Lord’s. He is still saying to me today, “Don’t touch it! The battle is mine.”

 

Then I also thought about our current house unit number. 03-05. I looked up Strong’s concordance and saw this meaning in Hebrew. It says ‘my wish is that’. The Greek meaning is to go up, ascend, come up higher. Put together it means: My wish is to go up higher. Wasn’t this what the Lord had been doing in my life since we shifted here? Bringing me into a higher place. Coming up higher to see His perspective. I had come full circle higher level. Gone up higher in the paths of His righteousness.

 

I was also wondering which verse would correspond to 305 and then I saw Psalms 30:5. It says weeping may endure a night but joy comes in the morning. Wow! There was a season I held on to this verse dearly. God kept telling me that my sorrow will be turned into joy one day. I would not be camping in this valley of Baca (tears) but only passing through. Indeed when we left RV and shifted here, God began turning my sorrows into joy. 

 

No wonder God said I had to move away from RV. Though it started out as a haven, after a while that place was associated with too much failures and disappointments. I badly needed a change in environment. I needed a new beginning. I had to forget and put behind these things of my past in order to move forward into my future. There is always hope in the new things. When we shifted, the cycle of disappointments was broken off. 

 

God is so good. He had totally erased all traces of my past, things that could cause me to remember my sorrows. He made me forget the troubles in my past season when He brought me to this new home. Now the memories of my past are becoming very faint. With so many changes in my life for the past two years, I hardly could remember the pain and sorrow I went through in those years. God replaced those pain with so much joy. 

 

So the narrative was this. During those years of fighting, I had to continually feast on the word of God. It was really my lifeline back then, especially in 2016. Though things started to turn around from 2018, I still struggled with certain recurring issues. God began His process of healing my soul wounds from 2018 but the process was only complete this year. But once we shifted over here, God really brought me to a higher level. 

 

Connecting to my tribe last Sep was a major milestone as well because it was only with these like-minded believers that I could hone my prophetic anointing. These people really made a big difference in my life. I don’t take them for granted. It was partly because of them that I could come up higher. In 2020, the Lord brought me to an even higher level in terms of hearing from Him and boldly declaring His word. Especially in the area of vision and dream interpretation. And also my sensing of people and situations. 

 

Even Heng said that ever since we shifted here, I became more joyful and much less affected over the issue that used to plague me. There was clearly a shift like in Psalms 30:5. I had been crying so much in the previous night season but joy always comes in the morning. I really thank God for all the changes and the new things in my life since we shifted here. I had prayed for those changes and they came. And these are good changes. 

 

I experienced how the Lord slowly restored joy back to my life. There was a time I was caught in this heaviness, this dark cloud over me. My mind was oppressed by all the warfare and I had so many battle wounds. God took me out and nursed me back to health. He also strengthened me and put me back in the battle field. When I got back there I was no longer fearful of the attacks. I knew the enemy had lost. We had the final victory.

 

As my eyes focused on the Lord and His word, I began to see how we can rejoice even in the midst of adverse circumstances because as intense and overwhelming they might seem, it was only temporal. This too shall pass and yes many things had passed. Only God’s word endures. God always has the last say. And He saves the best for the last too. Well, this year I learnt about true freedom, peace and joy in the midst of difficulties in the world. 

 

During the lockdown when our freedom was restricted, God opened my eyes to see what real freedom was about. Freedom from the control of our flesh. Freedom from our emotions and feelings. Freedom from reacting when the enemy pressed that button. This freedom can only be found in Christ. Then I also learnt what true peace was about. It wasn’t dependent on our circumstances but it was an abiding peace in what God has said and resting on His faithfulness because if He said it, He would do it. 

 

And joy, oh joy! It used to be so elusive. I remembered having to read up books on how to be happy at one time. I just couldn’t find joy and pleasure during those tough times. I only knew what pain was like. But God is so good. He said He would repay me more joy than the pain and sufferings I endured. And He really did! He blessed me so much that I couldn’t help but be joyful. But then again true joy isn’t found in just His blessings. True joy comes from a deeper intimacy with Him, knowing how much He loves me and how precious I am to Him!

JOURNEY OF 13 YEARS FINALLY OVER!

This morning as I woke up, I was meditating on the journey of Abraham. Last night I was reminded of the resemblance of my own faith journey with Abraham’s. Those memories were triggered because of a post I had read yesterday. I wasn’t much in a reflective mode recently because I was all raring to move forward. I could not wait to see what the new season holds. 

 

But I felt that God seemed to be telling me not to rush this process, for it hadn’t been just a year or two that passed. It was an entire chunk of 13 years of my life, with the past decade spent in preparation at home. I really didn’t expect to embark on such a journey in Jan 2008 when I sought the Lord for the next season of my life. 

 

On 18 Jan 2021, it would be exactly 13 years since God told me to trust Him for what He was doing in my next season when I last sought His will. God told me that it was a faith test for me. I didn’t know I was about to enter a long season of wilderness after God led me out of Egypt (my old workplace). But thank God that I have passed the faith test. An entire chunk of my life had been completed. 

 

At that time I was just hoping to hear from the Lord when I could leave my company and stay home to take care of Joshua. It had been my heart’s desire to be able to stay home. Well even though I knew that returning to work was only temporal after I gave birth, I still had to be patient and wait upon His timing to leave. Only if He gave the green light to resign. 

 

I so very much wanted to jump on an opportunity to resign in Oct 2008. There was a door to part time work that had opened. But after I sought the Lord, I decided it wasn’t a good time to leave yet. I had unfinished business in that place. So I had to stay on and cooperate with God on whatever He wished to accomplish in that place.

 

And the days became months and years. I ended up staying there for another 3 more years before God led me out. Later on I understood the reason why God had me stay on. He wanted to do a restorative work before He took me out of corporate world. He had to cause me to leave with my head lifted up. He had to drown those enemies in the Red Sea.

 

Towards the end of that season, things heated up and I almost lost my bearing during the shaking in my workplace. But thank God I kept focusing on Jesus and cooperating with Him. That was how God caused me to conquer and stay afloat when the others were all sinking. It was like going through the fire. But thank God the tough times didn’t linger. 

 

When God did what He wanted, He wasted no time to move me out of that place. It came to a point when I didn’t think that I was going to leave that place because my new season had begun there. After all it seemed like I was stuck there indefinitely. What I thought was temporal actually lasted for three years. I didn’t expect it to take so long. 

 

But God is faithful. He is really not a man who changes His mind. When His plan for that season was completed, He really moved me out. I was glad to have cooperated with Him when I saw how I left that place in honour. The enemies I saw in that season, I saw no more. It was on hindsight that I realised what mattered most wasn’t the length of time taken for His word to come to pass. What was more important was to close each chapter well. 

 

In that way, the enemies of my past couldn’t come and haunt me in the new season. Because they were all drowned in the Red Sea. During that time, my enemy was the taunting of my defeat in another company, how I left that place in shame. But God restored my honour and lifted me up. It was a glorious finish to my corporate life. After all I really wasn’t sure if I was ever going back to the workforce. 

 

At the start of my stay-home season, it felt like days of heaven on earth. I was finally living my dream life. Staying in a beautiful condo environment, not having to work yet still receiving passive income. I was not only able to spend more time with Joshua, I could spend unhindered fellowship with the Lord. This was really a luxury. I couldn’t be more grateful to Him for His wonderful plan.

 

But as the days turned into months and years, with no sight of a promise God gave me in Feb 2008, I began to get restless. Honestly I really had no idea when this promise would manifest. I also didn’t know what God was doing in my life. How long I would remain at home and whether I would go back to the corporate world. Or whether there would be a change in my vocation. My life was so dependent on the doors God opened for me. 

 

Back then I was just so happy to jump into the stay home season without much thoughts about my future or even our finances. I figured out that since God has called me to stay home, then He would provide for our family. In fact, just like Abraham during his sojourning, God prospered us a lot. He caused Heng to rise up to the top in his career. He prospered us along the journey with Him, not knowing where He was leading us to. 

 

In many ways our lives mirrored Abraham’s. Even in the area of relationships, there was much strife at the start when I was still very much attached to my mum’s family. I had a lot of trouble with my ‘Lot’ until I had no choice but to separate ourselves from them. After that I had some peace in my life. But the emotional ties with my mum’s family were only cut off last year. It took many years for God to do that. 

 

Even my ministry was similar to Abraham. I was praying and interceding for others, helping them out in their times of trouble even while waiting for my own breakthrough. We are blessed to be a blessing. God justified Abraham even when he lied about Sarah being his sister twice and protected her from being violated. Abraham also prayed for King Abimelech’s household to have children while Sarah was still barren. 

 

But now I am impressed upon the time In Genesis 17 when the three angels visited Abraham to bring good news of the arrival of Isaac. Before that God told Abraham to circumcise his household. Ishmael was 13 years old at that time. It reminded me of the time when God told Joshua to consecrate His people for tomorrow God is going to perform miracles. It was a time of consecration for Abraham before the promised child came. 

 

In Feb, I was given a word on Joshua 3:5. During the subsequent months, I too went through a time of consecration. God had to make sure that my heart was pure and my allegiance was solely to Him. He was performing a circumcision of my heart all these years. But at the appointed time, He came and told me to consecrate myself again. That was the when I saw the post about Joshua 3:5 on 3 Nov and 14 Dec. The time must have come. 

 

The reason for consecration is so that we could be presented as pure and sanctified vessels for God to pour out His glory through us to bless others. God can do miracles independent of us but He wants to partner us so that we can share in His joy. God is so good. He seems to be saying that there is a finality to a long-standing issue in my life. 

 

Just like the time when I really thought I was going to be stuck in that workplace forever, yet when my time came, God moved me out just as He promised. It didn’t matter how long I waited for my promise to manifest. It didn’t matter how it didn’t look like it was coming soon. It didn’t matter that everything seems the same in the natural for a while. If God said it, it is done. He does not lie. If He said your appointed time has come, then it has come. 

 

Just continue to press in, move forward and only believe. Rest in His faithfulness because the battle belongs to the Lord. Don’t even touch it. I have truly come to the end of this journey. It is going to be 13 years on 18 Jan 2021. I should know the times and seasons. My time and season. I should be aware by now that God has started releasing me from my prison and concreted my calling. That was the second wind. So don’t look back anymore.

 

This month, God began to show me how I have passed the faith test. How I have finished the race, crossed the finishing line. I have fought the good fight of faith and He said: Well done, my good and faithful servant! He began to impress upon me that my past season was finally done. He was closing the chapter. He pointed out the story of Joseph with the 13-year wilderness and said it wasn’t a coincidence that I have walked through 13 years of wilderness since Jan 2008. 

 

God also pointed out that for the past two years I had been in prison but now I am being released from prison. In 2018, Heng also likened me to Joseph being in prison, waiting for God to release me. As I looked back on hindsight, I saw that I had indeed walked through a long season of wilderness, wandering in the desert. But now it has finally ended. It wasn’t a coincidence that another sister who had been with me on this journey said she believed the process she had been going through in this season was complete. 

BE AWAKENED TO SEE THE REAL ENEMY!

I had a dream about Donald Trump the other night after watching the video by Amir Tsarfati on the Illuminati. That video (https://youtu.be/ir2yVa0A9q4) was such an eye-opener. Now as I looked back, I could understand where the attacks were coming from and who Donald Trump was really up against in his fight. It wasn’t just against the Democrats but the Illuminati, the Communists. 

I dreamt that I met President Trump on a horse. But he got down from it and started walking the grounds. I was one of his staff and was following him around. He said he had to get to this other place. He needed to settle some issues with his ex-wife. He had to ask for her forgiveness. 

 

The next scene was us in a marketplace. President Trump was choosing some fruits. Just then I heard a commotion about some old lady who had fallen down. This sister came over to ask if we had anointing oil as they wanted to pray for the old lady. I didn’t have any on me but surprisingly Trump offered his bottle of oil to this sister. It was raining and they were in the open so I offered my umbrella to them. 

 

As I was walking with President Trump, I asked him if he had accepted Christ. He said he accepted Christ quite some time ago. I was relieved to hear that. Then we came to this highway. In fact there were two highways. The first one was a bigger and higher one. The second one was a smaller and lower one but it had a gap in between. No cars were on either highway. 

 

I was looking at the highways when I realised there was this man, a billionaire beside me. Someone of the likes of wealthy businessmen like Mark Zuckerberg. He was telling his man that he wanted to move to the place where the rich and wealthy lived so that he could use this dedicated highway for the rich when it was completed. In fact he was willing to pay money to get the highway completed. In my heart I was thinking what an elitist! 

 

I believe God has encountered Trump and he was learning to let go of his past mistakes, seeking forgiveness when necessary. Trump had gotten off the ‘high horse’ and was learning to humble himself. But the most important message about my dream was that Trump had received Christ. He is now a new creation. He even had the anointing oil with him. The other thing was about the two highways. The one which the elitist was using was currently broken and they were seeking to repair it. 

 

I believe my dream was influenced by the video on the Illuminati. That was the real dark forces behind the scenes. They had their own commandments and the first one was to keep the world population below 500 million. No wonder they were orchestrating the wars and the abortion laws! Perhaps this virus was also orchestrated by them to wipe out a part of the world’s population. 

 

They believed that in order to have a better quality of life on earth, there cannot be too many people on this earth. It was also no wonder why they kept the poor even poorer so they had no access to good healthcare services and died young as a result. In part, the wealth gap was all along their intention so that they could get even richer and more powerful. 

 

Their purpose was to move the world towards a one world government. One of the ways they tried to gain control was through communism. In fact at one point, their people were so desperate for a world leader who could alleviate their problems that they didn’t mind if this person came from Satan. 

 

Indeed Satan worshippers in the Illuminati were getting more blatant as people’s hearts grew cold towards God. The moral standards had been so eroded from 20 years ago. The Illuminati also had some esoteric symbols that only the intellectuals knew. These symbols were lightning, the one eye, the pyramid and the yin and yang logo etc.

 

Then there was this infiltration of the Illuminati in the media and entertainment. Things that our youths are exposed to. How would they know otherwise? It was so subtle unlike the things of God which are so out in the open. Later I also understood why the enemy wanted the church to be asleep, to be passive waiting for the rapture. The church is the restraining force for the anti Christ. Unless she is taken out of this world the enemy cannot have his way on the earth. The one world government cannot come to pass. 

 

Besides once the church was taken out of this world the population would be greatly reduced. The rest of the world would then head towards the great tribulation under the tyrannical control of the beast. The world is really hoodwinked thinking that God is their enemy and Satan is their saviour. What a big fat lie from the pit of hell! No wonder the enemy didn't come against the teaching about the rapture to happen sooner. He didn't mind us being raptured.

 

What the enemy was coming against was the church being awakened and taking authority in the seven mountains. That would delay or halt the enemy's plan of moving the world into the one world government. He knows his time is short. The enemy didn't want the billion soul harvest to come to pass. He tried so hard to come against the great revival, the restoration of glory back to the church. It is God's plan for His church to arise and take possession of this earth before the rapture or before Jesus comes back again.

 

We are not waiting for Jesus to take us out of the sufferings of this world. That would be a cop out. We are waiting for the taking back of dominion over this world. We must arise and be violent in taking back what rightfully belonged to us. God is also training us to reign with Him in the coming millennial rule with Jesus. After we have accomplished our mission on this earth to usher in the great revival and bring in the greatest harvest of souls then the rapture would come. It would be a glorious finish not a cop out. 

 

The Illuminati has existed for centuries and taken many different forms. But at its core was rebellion against Abba God through satanic worship. The church is no more an infant but we have come of age. We have weaned from milk and feeding on solid food. The enemy has the body of Christ hoodwinked by turning against each other while the Illuminati grew stronger all this time. We forgot that our enemy is not against flesh and blood but principalities and dark powers. They are united while we are disunited. What a deception! We need to be awakened to see the real enemy!

 

I also saw how the plan of the enemy was to keep the church powerless by focusing their attention on challenges like trying to get rich, health and relationships issues. The enemy tried to keep the church poor, barren and constantly distracted so we could never rise up to what God has for us. We are hoodwinked by all the issues we can see with our natural eyes forgetting that there is a spiritual aspect to all our struggles. This era God is opening our eyes to see the enemy's plans. And if we align ourselves to His plan, know our calling and seek first His kingdom, He will take care of all these challenges. 

 

I forgot to add that after watching the video, I had a clearer picture of who Trump was coming up against and no wonder the resistance was so strong. He was not coming against the Democrats or Joe Biden but the Illuminati. He was getting to the roots of the swamp. The hidden and anonymous rich elites behind the scenes manipulating the financial markets, media and politics. It was clear that the enemy was rearing its ugly head in recent months. God was forcing the evil to come up to the surface. 

 

But I had a sense that God is coming on the scenes very soon. He has been doing something behind the scenes all this while and He will show His hand very soon. The enemy is always many steps behind our Lord. He is a defeated foe. Jesus has already won the victory for us. And the word I received about Trump was to pursue and overtake. Don’t give up, don’t concede. The battle is not over yet. The enemy may seem like he is winning but this is all a façade. If Trump can pursue and overtake like King David did at Ziklag, then he would surely recover all. The spoils would be tremendous.