Friday, March 28, 2014

An eventful three months

I realize that I haven't been blogging for more than three months. My friend asked why I have not been blogging for a while. I told her that I have been grappling with certain issues early this year. From the start of Jan, our family was hit by a viral attack. First it was Joshua who got sick and it took him more than a week to recover. Then it was Heng who fell sick but thank God Heng recovered very fast. Lastly it was me and it also took me a while to recover. It was the first time that all three of us fell sick one after another. It came so suddenly and we were caught off guard. But thank God that He has delivered us from those viral attacks.

In the second half of Jan, one of my care group hosts developed a complication after an operation. It was not exactly a major operation but somehow there was a blood infection in which she had to be re-admitted and operated again. In the next two weeks, she went through three consecutive operations. The entire care group was still praying and believing for her healing, no matter how impossible it seemed in the natural. But it came to a point where she fought a good fight of faith and went home to be with The Lord on 31 Jan. It was a difficult period for our care group and her husband but God comforted us with the comfort of Christ. We found comfort when we knew she was in a much better place, with a brand new body. She is with Jesus now and she must be rejoicing in heaven as she looks at us. Even though it is God's will to heal, it could be her will that she wanted Jesus to take her home. God would not supersede her will because He gave us free choice.

After her passing, some of us were still a bit shaken because it was so sudden and she did not even have time to say goodbye to us. I think we all missed her dearly because she was like the mother of our care group. She will always be in our loving memory because of her love for Jesus and her love for us. But because of the sudden nature of her passing, fear came into some of members' mind. They were wondering what happened to our prayers. Does God still heal? If so, why didn't it manifest in her life? Because of such doubts, it manifested in members' lives through hospitalization, lying symptoms of sicknesses etc.

Thank God that He addressed our doubts when Pastor Prince said that God will not force His  healing on anyone if they don't want healing. And we should come into agreement with His word if we want healing for our life. Yet for their whose healing didn't manifest on this side of heaven, a believer will not lose out because he will be with Jesus in heaven and a brand new body. That's perfect healing. After these doubts and fears were addressed, there were no more such lying symptoms or threats of poor health on care members. It is so true that right believing leads to right living.

I was quite exhausted by all these events that happened to our family and my sheep that it took me a while to rest and sit at the feet of Jesus, so that I can be refreshed. Thank God that He gave me the rest and refreshing as I took time to feed from Jesus and pray in tongues. It didn't take me too long to realize that these are attacks on our lives. I don't want to be caught unawares and always fighting fires. Once I put out the fire here, the enemy started the fire in another area. I told The Lord I want to be prepared and alerted of things to come.

One of the ways to regain my footing in the midst of chaos was to pray in tongues. Praying in tongues not only helps to build up my wearied body by giving me rest, it is also a defensive weapon. Coupled with the word of God, praying in tongues is really effective in recognizing and thwarting the enemy's plans. In times of challenges, I was prompted to put up the word of God everywhere in my home so that I could meditate and declare God's word. I found that the other way out of these challenges was to praise God and to worship Him. As we worship Jesus, we turn our eyes away from the problems and God begins to turn our situation around.

In all things God works for the good of those who loves Him. Through these incidents, I thank God that I gain a far greater revelation of Jesus and precious lessons about the spiritual things of God and the will of man. Things that are unseen are permanent whereas things that are seen are only temporary. Spiritual things are powerful because the physical world mirrors the spiritual. We have to declare the word of God over our lives because God calls things that are not in existence as if they do (Romans 4:17) and we are made in the image of God. I also learnt that life and death lies in the power of our tongues and we really have to learn to be careful about what we say. Speak what you want to see, not what you see. Dear friends, I hope you have been blessed by my sharing on the precious lessons I learnt during this time.