Back to my stay home days!

My contract with the church office ended on 11 Nov. Since then I have been enjoying my free time at home with Joshua, as his school holidays had started. It was really a good break for me, a well-deserved break after the intense 4.5 months of part-time work. The part time assignment was rather overwhelming for me as I was covering a full time job. But once I started, there was no turning back, I had to press on till the lady who was on maternity leave comes back. I enjoyed working there with the interaction with my colleagues but I just find that it was too rushed for me everyday. I had to rush back home to pick Joshua up from the school bus.

But I guess more importantly I didn't have enough time to spend with The Lord and I felt that I really missed Him a lot. I was in a dilemma because the pastors really hoped that I could continue with my part-time work with them next year but I didn't feel the peace nor the desire to work. I just felt like I needed a break because it had been a hectic time for me, rushing here and there. Although God gave me the grace to see me through the entire assignment, I still felt like fish out of water during the assignment. I was tired and thirsty for more of the living waters. During my part-time work, I so yearned to go back to my stay home days, of leisurely time spent with The Lord.

I do believe that I will be back to full-time work in the church office in future but for now, I just want to do the one thing needful, like Mary, that is to sit at the feet of Jesus and feed from Him. I know that the way I receive manna from The Lord will change in future, for I will not always have the luxury of time spent with Him if I work full-time. But anyway, right now, in this season, I shall not worry about that. I am sure He will cause me to adjust well when the time comes. And my desire to work will be there for it is God who works in us, to will and to work for His good pleasure (Phil 2:13). As always, the desire has to be there before the working out. This is how I know that it is the correct decision as the presence of peace is evident in my heart.

For this past month of staying home, I thank God that I re-gained my equilibrium and came to the place of peace and rest. I was refreshed and recharged by His word. I often made myself happy in The Lord because there is always joy in His presence. I am enjoying this time of staying home and I tell myself I will not grumble or complain that I am too bored because everything comes in seasons. The key is really to enjoy every season for they are unique and once it has passed, it will never come back again. I also enjoy spending time with Joshua, bringing him to various places like playgrounds, library, museums during the school holidays. It is a good bonding time for mummy and Joshua. I really thank God for His goodness in our lives.